Manifesting the Good… no the GREAT Stuff

Back in 2005 I started on my journey towards my dream job. I applied to my local community college to work towards my B.S. of Accounting. I worked 2-3 jobs at a time while going to school full time. I don’t know how I did it. In 2009 I landed my first job with my degree in an industry that would help me achieve my dream job. I worked very hard at work with my dream job in mind. Then in 2012 I applied for my MBA. I worked close to 60 hours a week at work and took 2 classes a semester all year round to earn that degree. I spent over $50,000 to earn a spot to apply for my dream job.

Three years ago today I applied for my dream job. I put in a lot of blood, sweat, and tears to earn my degrees and build a career history to get my first interview. For the months leading up to applying to my dream job I ran hills, I ran sprints, and I built strength at the gym. I continued to set personal records for myself each month. My physical changes were noticed by coworkers but I keep silent about my dream job and brushed their questions aside. I spent close to 40 hours compiling information to support my resume.

Two months after applying to my dream job, I realized that the dream had passed. I no longer wanted to be a FBI agent. There were many things that went into that very personal decision. But the dream was over. And I was crushed. Why did I go back to college in the first place? Why did I go for my MBA? Why did I go into an industry that most people find frustrating, annoying, and boring? What the hell was I going to do now?

Between applying to my dream job and now a lot of things have changed. I simplified my life, decluttered my stuff, really started to focus on paying off debt, and building my new dream life! Because after all my main reason for my prior decisions was for my dream job. These past two years have been a struggle to find my people in an industry that does great things for many people but does not light me up. I got into my industry a year after the 2008 recession when jobs were hard to come by.

Recently I started manifesting what I really want based upon my current values and current goals. While nothing is official… I see great things happening over the next couple of weeks! Each night I run through my top three. I say one great thing that happened for our pup, Mr. BMM, and myself that day. Tonight I’m going to lay in bed saying how grateful I am for my current opportunities.

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